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longggggg time |
March 17th, 2007 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: stories
Feeling: abandoned
friends suck.
life shouldnt go on.
boys are lame.
trying is never a good thing.
if you wanna argue and say differently...fuck you too. |
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October 23rd, 2006 @ 12:00am |
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I'm a [[hopeless]] romantic. I believe in wishing on stars ;; soul mates && love that never ends.
I just keep pushing myself, thinking maybe I can someday get out of here.
i was born to be [[stubborn]], to be a little bit [[bitchy]]; to push people, to push myself. i was taught to never take life for granted, live a little, love with everything i had, never give up, believe in myself, but most of all, fight for myself
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hopelessly devoted to you |
July 3rd, 2006 @ 12:00am |
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I've been waiting for a week for this call. Both sundays...yet I haven't gotten it. I knew I wouldn't. I'm on a sidekick and I'm talking to some guy, but FUCK I miss him!!!! I could almost cryyy |
| 41 hit(s) |
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Somewhere there's a love in flames |
May 19th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
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My love......take my breath away...♥.♥.♥.♥ |
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i.love.your.average.face |
May 2nd, 2006 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: bleed.the.dream
Feeling: sane
theres nothing left but shattered memories of what we left behind
life=hecticx4
prom=dramax10
love=painx34
friendships=confusionx81
he means the world to me.
he makes me want to fall in love again.
he brings that dorky smile to my face.
he believes and makes me trust that its alright.
he forces my heart to race and my mind to dream
he fills my life with hope and happiness
...neither care... |
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April 20th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
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((oh no,))
she fell in
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.o.
.v.
.e.
.♥. |
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im falling. save me? |
April 13th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
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I hate him, i hate him with a passion. i never wanted him to make me feel this way
He meant everything to her
But she meant nothing to him.
and the sad thing is she'd still
do anything to be with him.
&& you're missing what's
right in front of you ;;
a girl who's willing to
give up anything for you
there’s something about you that always makes me smile i think you’re someone special because i haven’t been able to do that in a while
the best thing in the world at this moment
would be falling asleep in your arms ;; and waking up in the same place
I know you're worth the wait
And I can't explain
What I'm going through inside
But I would turn away the world
Just to have you here with me tonight
Never fall in love with someone you will never get a chance with, it only causes pain.
No matter how long I wait for you my wishes and dreams will never come true.. so the only thing left that I can do, is to hold in my tears.. and forget about you.
I compare all guys I like to you and you know what, they never measure up, not even close, and the sad thing is most are better than you.. I just can't see it....
&& i've got my headphones blaring so loud
that it hurts, but i'm beyond caring, because
all im trying to do is forget you.
Somehow they mentioned your name, and someone asked me if i knew you. Looking away i thought of all the times we had together, sharing laughter, tears, jokes, and tons more, and then, without explanation you were gone. I looked to where they were waiting for my answer and then i said softly, once...I thought i did
Lets lay on our backs & gaze up at the stars.
Let's pretend that for a moment all that matters is you & I.
Let's pretend that hearts could never be broken & even if they could.
Let's pretend that you would never think of breaking mine.
there's always gonna be that one boy that when he
smiles at you, it brightens your day & when he talks
to you, all your problems go away && when you see
him, your heart beats a mile a minute. .. thats when you
know in your life he's the only one that should be in it
I'd rather argue with you
than kiss someone else
So, once again, I'll feel my heart break over something that was only in my head, but remember: I meant every word I should have left unsaid.
Every night, she finds herself lying in bed,
reliving and remembering every glance
he did and every word he said
&& even though I remind myself that we'll
probably never be together, I still won't let
myself fall for anyone else ♥
oneglance.onesmile.oneword
[ that`s all it took ]
Theres a million things in this world
that im not sure of. but right now,
with all cetainty. im sure I miss you.
JUST FOR THE RECORD:
you'restillmyeverything.♥
often, the things you are scared of
are the things you need the most ♥
He had a way with words. He had a way of making her weak in the knees. & he had a way of picking her up, and letting her go.
for valentines day i don`t want any
chocolates. i want a boy who will go to
the little machines with plastic rings in
it & kneel down on one knee & ask me
to be his v a l e n t i n e
shes letting herself go |
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April 10th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
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struggling to grasp your attention
i feel my grip weaken
please help
its not supposed to end this way
stop the world
freeze all time
hold me in your arms
we can get this right
just the two of us
hand in hand
let the world fade away
this isnt just another day
im losing myself in your eyes
im melting away in your arms
im suffocating in your silence
im falling apart in your hatred |
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i never knew |
April 10th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
Everyone knows I'm in over my head, over my head.
with 8 seconds overtime, shes on your mind
I'll never admit it.
Those words will never escape my mouth.
My heart will never tell anyone as of now.
Its fading, faster, faster, soon gone.
A foggy window, not love.
((i dont love him. i hate him)) |
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you'd think I'd learn over these years |
April 8th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
Good things won't last forever
..take everything, leave me scrambling for something that wasnt there in the first place...
I am living in and for the moments my heart is so perfectly stolen, the moments when I actually feel loved, the moments when he'll hold me and never want to let me go.
well, go me, im blind. He doesn't care. never has. never will.
now i sit here crying, reaching for him to come back to me, apologizing, feeling bad and he just isnt there. never has been.
i want it to end. |
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society lies. |
April 1st, 2006 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: greeley estates
Feeling: placid
society and people lie...
boysss dont cause heartbreaks....
"friends" do
the city world sleeps in flames! |
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kiss the sun, in your eyes |
March 28th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
She's outback counting stars
I didn't find a boyyy, I found a liar and an actor.
You are the greatest murderer
using love as the weapon
&& leaving broken hearts for evidence
The way he didnt touch me when I was hugging him, the way both hugs ended so quickly, and they were so blank. I feel ridiculous, I feel rejected. He is ignoring me, completely shutting me out, and it is making me want to cry. What the hell did I do?
maybe I was keeping myself blind to things, maybe I hate him.
--Sigh-- |
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perfect time...♥ |
March 24th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: perfect time
Feeling: ill
it's the perfect time to be in loveim falling for you more each day.♥
"As long as we are together everything will be just fine." that is how i feel.
yet, i am lost. i am spinning in circles, looking for something i want so badly.
but i dont know what i want!
it hurts.
&& i see the way he looks at other girls, thats not how he looks at me.
i see the way he hugs other girls, thats not how he hugs me.
what's wrong with me?
I have my happiness maker person yet...i do not feel that happy.
-sadly enough-
Let's Commit the Perfect Crime: I'll steal your heart, and You'll steal mine |
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i am so high; i can hear heaven |
March 22nd, 2006 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: copeland
Feeling: alone
Look what love gave us...
i found a boyyyy.
a boy who makes my heart skip a beat.
a boy who makes me love my name because the way he says it.
a boy who makes my heart race and weakens my breathing.
a boy who gives me butterflies.
a boy who makes me feel happy.
a boy who i cannot get enough of.
♥
if only he were mine...
If I told you I cant stop thinking about you or just the thought of you makes me smile or that I get butterflies when I hear your name or all I want is to be held tightly in your arms Would you think I'm crazy?
♥♥♥
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all good things fail... |
March 18th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: armor for sleep
Feeling: sane
what i thought was certainty has left me spinning in circles [again]
well...i lied. i had two completely wonderful days...then it failed.
i broke down, cried, not fun.
no justification as to why i was crying, but i know i had no reason.
*jerkk* can go to hell.
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why the sudden change ♥ |
March 16th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: runaway
Feeling: affectionate
hush now....don't say a word.
everything has been going good. its weird. it shouldnt be this way.
im just waiting for some huge thing to come crashing down. but the past two days have been greattttt.
&& i got so many hugs from so many people whom i love.
♥ |
| 14 hit(s) |
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your promises
..they look like lies... |
March 13th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
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There's a song blaring in
Her headphones that reminds
Her of a boy who will never care. |
| 44 hit(s) |
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iSSUES |
March 5th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
WHY do I even try?
I mean come on..I am like beyond BiPOLAR && I am convinced I have ADHD!
I seriously have issues.
Trying is pointless...Nobody loves people who have issues. |
| 64 hit(s) |
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te amo |
March 3rd, 2006 @ 12:00am |
el es mi amor...mi vida...mi quebranto
No me hagas sufrir...no me hagas llorar...
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as we're sparkling and twirling in the twilight. |
February 27th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: the spill canvas
Feeling: childish
Anyone who says sunshine brings happiness has never danced in the rain
The rain makes me happy && I now feel childish.
I hugged people while being soaking wet because i spent over half an hour in the rain just dancing && spinning && singing. it was great.
But almost everyone I hugged...FREAKED out && pushed me away!
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you've got to be kidding me |
February 26th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
The one who cannot stand to see me cry.....
Now is making me cry.
what the fuck is up with the world && every one in it? maybe i should save myself && a lot of others and just leave it all!
what do you when the only person you can stop you from crying is the person who made you cry?
.:EDiT:.
yay. go me. i finally said a much overdue goodbye! a goodbye i forever feared to say...but i am relieved! he wont care. he hates me. i guess more than anything it was simply a definite ending in my opinion to the past two years of my life. |
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&she waits by the computer for the love of her life to come |
February 25th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: Greeley Estates/Vertical horizon
Feeling: independent
don`t make her wait for you just because you know she will
i sit here...waiting for the love of my life to sign on...just so i can hurt. I know i said i'd wait for him forever...but its killing me.
12 Words....3 mintues.....now i've waited for almost an hour for him to come back.
i miss him. i havent talked to him for 23 hours...&& the rate its going...a lot longer.
i wish i could just cry, but i cant. && he doesnt like me crying. but i am hurt.
PATHETiC! i know.
.... i waited...an hour and a half,....didnt even get a good-bye
.:EDiT:.
&& later he came online...imed me && told me goodnight. i was just like i am upset with you! && he asked why, all i said was nothing. bye && he was like bye.
I feel really bad about it too. I mean its not really his fault i care. but what makes me feel worse.......all i wanted to say was....
DON'T TALK TO ME! JUST GO AWAY!
i feel horrible. |
| 51 hit(s) |
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you give me that funny feeling in my tummy & it wont ever go |
February 24th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: the all american rejects
Feeling: affectionate
beautiful girl with gorgeous eyes a hidden world of hurt && lies, it`s hard for her to even realize: love isn`t all about butterflies...
*SiGH*
its the way he's making me fall in love everytime i talk to him, that is really forcing me to be scared. Hes becoming that of my best friend...falling for best friends doesn't work. Look where it has gotten me....i lost the last one.
its the way i have slowly turned dependent on him...he holds my life in his hands. the feeling of depending on him, having him be my one and only savior.....scares me and hurts me.
i [adore] that he has the power to make me extremely && truly happy. it helps so much...&& he willingly will...&& he actually cares about me as a person.
it all feels like i am over looking something. something huge. life shattering.
friends scare me. i dont want to lose them. especially him
♥ |
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its the way you make me smile |
February 20th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
so there's this guy...&& i kinda have a thing for him.
so yeah im kindasortamaybe falling head over heels.
&& that really scares me. a lot.
I'm scared!
♥♥♥ |
| 45 hit(s) |
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so yeah im kindasortamaybe falling for you |
February 18th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: falling for you
Feeling: amorous
so there's this guy.. and i kinda have a thing for him.
she's afraid that she might actually love him...& that scares her
♥
but my god...its so beautiful when that boy smiles...
♥
i love his cute little comments.. the way he makes me laugh.. the way he's always there, and the way he knows how to get my heart..
♥
everytime his eyes meet mine i cant help but SMiLE
♥
you can't blame me.. the boy is gorgeous!
♥
i dont know if i like you or love you; want you or need you. all i know is the feeling i get when i talk to you is just unexplainable
♥
because when i talk ; he listens. he`s like a drug & i`m addicted
♥
because your the kind of guy who'd laugh at me when i fall, help me up, & then whisper it's okay cause i love you
♥
your eyes still give me a reason to breathe && midnight conversations still mean everything to me.
♥
everytime i see you i start to smile my heart beats faster & my stomach fills with butterflies. i cant resist the way that i look into your eyes. i try to hide my feelings, but theres no way to deny that youre all i think about
♥
i see your screen-name pop up. i don`t want to iM you right away. i don`t want to seem desperate. i wait a few minutes, but after a while, i lose the courage. i need to talk to you. please, do me a favor. IM me first
♥
so yeah im kindasortamaybe falling for you
♥
&& the way you make me smile could outdue a million beautiful sunsets. x3
♥
stay with me, you're the one i need, you make the hardest things seem easy
♥
Let`s go down to the beach. bring your stereo & your favorite CDs. we`ll bring our guitars, sit on top of our cars. & sing the night away like ROCKSTARS.
♥♥♥ |
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&& when you hold me i wish you'd never let go |
February 16th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: I'm the best at ruining my life
Feeling: distracted
Im just going to sit and pretend Im NOT falling for you.
Cause if I dont admit it, Then i cant get hurt
*gosh*
here i go, falling again.
watching my pathetic self get that feeling, the feeling that i have found that love.
the thing that happens when your brain shuts off and your heart turns on.
and i know i'll regret this so much. but i cant help falling for him. i know its the worse possible thing to do but it feels so right.
the way he cares about me, and how he cannot stand to have me cry. the way his hugs just make me so happy and give me butterflies [flutterflies]. its just so great to feel like this, but i know nothing will happen. I thought i wouldnt fall for him. a year and a half...then i fell.
but hes great....whats not to love!
no, no. i need to shut up. if i dont admit it, i wont feel it, then it wont affect me.
I dont love him!
♥
*He shines in a world of ugliness,
he matters when everything else is meaningless*
♥
*&& when you hold me i wish you'd never let go*
♥
*I cant stop thinking about him*
♥
*I never wanted the stars,
never shot for the moon,
i like them where they are,
all i ever wanted was you*
♥
*I get lost in your eyes*
♥
*I can almost reach and touch the stars and feel my heart beating with your heart
I can almost change the world you know if you'll hold my hand and never let me go*
♥
*im trying to convince myself that youre not the one for me,
but the more i think the less i believe it
and the more i want you here with me*
♥
*i was having the worst day...until i saw his smile* [&& felt his hugg]
♥
*i want to be his last call of the night,
his first thought in the morning;
five hour conversations,
the one with "no, you hang up first",
him to make my heart race,
give me sweaty palms,
hugs that you never want to let go of,
but most of all, i want to be considered:
his.*
♥
*If I don't make it known that I've loved you all along
Just like sunny days that we ignore because we're all dumb and jaded.*
♥
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| 35 hit(s) |
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you force me with tears in my eyes |
February 9th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: flying above everything/remember to feel real
Feeling: haunted
so heres the truth you were right all along they were never my friends i was living a lie.
i try to find who i am but i get lost in the end sometimes its hard to know what's real when your not
I hate how I say im happy. he makes me happy. i am over someones bullshit. i take a stance && say he cannot hurt me, not again. && im content with what was my entire life being NOTHiNG NOW.
Happy? yeah. i believed so.
I just put the past as the past, && focused on what i had. friends who cared and something i was living for.
Then, you guess it. it failed AGAIN!
i have to write an essay....on something that i wish i could go back and change.
where the fuck do i begin?
as i cry && ask for an alternate assignment what does she do?
you can do it on a goal you set && everything else had just not mattered
well...its the same thing, same person.
i am trying to forget the past but it keeps being brought up.
i cried for like an hour during lunch && classes. i hate it.
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overrated |
February 7th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
you made it, you played it, your shit is overrated.
I Want SO badly to just HATE HIM! i hate it how like...he plays around so much. like he'll hate me then he'll do something that makes me think he cares. but then right after he treats me like shit again. like today. he stopped && gave me a hug && was talking to me. now hes like a total dick to me and i hate it. i mean he does it constantly. i mean fuck if you dont care for me quit doing things that make me feel like you actually might. && i guess its my stupidity for thinking someone especially him. would actually care! sometimes i think it would of been so much better to just of taken art my freshman year..then chances are i wouldnt of met him. better yet i wish i went to nordoff..then i would of never seen him, heard of him, fallen for him or still be hurting because of him. yet again...this so called happiness i found, is destroyed by this person who wants to play my life as if it were a game. I just want out.
i hate it. he was always the one i was like i cannot live without. he seriously was my life, my everything. and i never wanted to have to go without him. i always feared this would end but he never let me fear for long, he always said he'll be there, that hed care and to just be happy and not worry. i never thought he would break the promises of caring and being there forever. but he has. i just want to go back to when i saw him everyday back when he looked at me with no intention of hurting me. when you could tell he cared that i was hurting, when he couldnt stand to see me cry. back to when he was the person i fell for, the only one i could trust. the one who showed me that i was capable of being happy, the one who showed me i am not just some girl, that i am more than that. everything was so picture perfect. the talks and the hugs, the everything. being with him && having people mistake us for a couple. i just want to go back to it all..back to before i knew what this pain all felt like. back before i drowned in my dreams. back when that smile and that hug just kept everything together and stopped me from crying. i want it all back.
--he hugged me; i felt absolutely nothing && that hurts--
worn out and faded your weakness starts to show. |
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another sleepless night turns color black and white |
February 3rd, 2006 @ 12:00am |
What did I expect?Did I see forever in you? I never wanted to hurt more than it should. I hope you're satisfied, I never could
.:REGRET:.
To feel sorry, disappointed, or distressed about.
affliction, annoyance, apologies, bitterness, care, concern, conscience, disappointment, discomfort, dissatisfaction, grief, heartache, heartbreak, remorse, self-accusation, self-condemnation, self-disgust, self-reproach, sorrow, uneasiness, worry
REGRET that is my LiFE!
painfully permanent in my body |
| 55 hit(s) |
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why does love have to end? |
January 31st, 2006 @ 12:00am |
All Hail the HEARTBREAKER
what's it mean when you think you hate someone so much yet you cant stop thinking about them?♥
how can you love someone so much and at the same time never want to see them again?♥
why is it when you think of the nicest things to say to him they are always too late?♥
why is it when you were with him you thought nothing in this world could go wrong but now that you arent with him you feel like everything is turned upside down?♥
what does it mean when you liked him so much but in the end you just felt like an idiot to even think he noticed you?♥
what does it mean when you could have done anything for him and then when its over you still feel the same?♥
what does it mean when your so tired but you cant fall asleep because everything you think about leads to him?♥ |
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confused hearts; at our best && our worst |
January 29th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: pretty girl
Feeling: cautious
&& all we have are confused hearts
♥
 Love
You are hiding love. Why are you hiding love? Are
you afraid the person you love will reject
you? Or has a heart-break turned your heart
cold against the world?
Don't be afraid to love openly. There is someone
for everyone.
What Are You Hiding (with pics)? brought to you by Quizilla
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theres nothing left to prove; my hearts forever true♥ |
January 27th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
Happiness comes only when we push our brains and hearts to the farthest reaches of which we are capable.
HECK YES! FiNALS are OVER!
thank you!
i was about to die man.
ehh...grades. nothing i am proud off....at all.
but in life right now.
I AM REALLY HAPPY!
im happy with the struggles. im happy with the great days that leave me smiling.
over all. shocking i know. i am happy.
[now that will fail. it always does.]
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its the way that he makes you fall in love |
January 24th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
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...just hit play and watch my life fall apart
eek! Today. where to start? how about the beginning.
I woke up 1/2 an hour late.
I walked out of the house, got to car and realized i left my art final.
In car i had to finish history homework.
Then i had to do my hair and makeup.
I lost my money.
I got to school && forgot my art final in car.
Tried to call dad...dialed sisters number.
Got a hold of dad && he was across the street.
I run across && couldnt find him,
Finally find him and get final...
Get back on campus right as bell rings.
Now i go to 1st and 2nd and 3rd. I get to 4th...&& i am sitting there and i start to cry out of NO WHERE. i pull it together and stop.
Christian hugs me and makes me feel better.
I go to 5th...this guy i like and who is my friend totally blows me off [during 4th and 5th].
I go to 6th...find out this other guy i like might be getting expelled...i started feeling bad again.
I go to 7th for my final...&& i am bleck the whole time...Christian makes me feel better with hugs and such.
Very emotional filled day today. |
| 39 hit(s) |
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its that moment in life when you actually feel alive |
January 23rd, 2006 @ 12:00am |
love is just a hoax
Loves completely real.
So forget anything you have heard.
I love boyyys who will sing to me |
| 53 hit(s) |
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my biggest mistake: losing YOU |
January 18th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
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I miss him..&& all the little things he would do for me...like the way he'd sing to me in spanish class. && the way he'd like make me laugh with his noises...&& the way we'd sit together and work on homework && the way we'd have 3 hour conversations everynight for no apparent reason. && the way i'd be his HAT or the way hed let me lean onto his back and rest my head on his shoulder && the way we'd share a keyboard and finish eachothers sentences && the way he'd let me and only me read his lyrics && the way he would play with my hands. && the way no matter how mad i was...i still loved him
I miss him so much i am crying.
I'll never forgive myself for losing him!
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what am i REALLY after? |
January 15th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
I decided to start this one off differently, so here goes:
There's no doubt about it. All that tapping and fidgeting? Face it: You're restless, and you don't know what to do about it. No matter what you thought you were after just doesn't seem to be what you're really after any more. You might be able to continue distracting yourself for a while, but until you can discover what it is you really need to make yourself happy, you'll keep on tapping.
My Horoscope for the day. && it has really got me thinking.
WHAT I AM REALLY SEARCHiNG FOR?
But on the contrary...I am really happy right now!
AM I REALLY THAT iNDECiSiVE?
*contemplation*
I have no idea...
but i know for the moment i am EXTREMELY happy && that is perfect for me! |
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Im gonna sit and pretend im not fallin for you |
January 13th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
&& You know what the saddest part is?
I don't even try to stop my tears from FaLlInG...
Because I know they are going to fall no matter what
I had a really good day today.
Got in "trouble" for passing notes.
my teacher then told me what a great student I am, that i am bright and intelligent and he likes having me in the class and likes to see me smiling and laughing and yeah. interesting.
then watched guys play basketball.
Saw my friend dylan...&& everytime he'd see me he'd end up messing up a lot. it was quite funny.
&& he made it a point to look at me && make me laugh by doing funny things.
then i saw my jakee...talked to him for a while.
it was pretty cool. made me smile. made me laugh.
he was dancing and singing and like really enjoying it. then he asked me if i was gay or lesiban because the dialing on my phone shows up in a rainbow of colors.
that hurt my feelings.
&& i realized...[since i was sitting on a curb && he was jumping next to me]...he has a big ass. like yeah.
♥
♥I think I'm in love with love♥ |
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dont take from me; my heart is barely beating ♥ |
January 11th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
All I ever really need is YOU!
"I wish to no longer know you"
&& my heart shattered on the floor, spending the rest of the day just staring [at it], with tears in my eyes.
"Where you being serious when you said you wish to no longer know me?"
"No"
yet still...my heart lays shattered on the floor. |
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i never knew what it was to be alone |
January 10th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
Thanks for all you've done,
I've missed you for so long
I can't believe you're gone;
You still live in me,
I feel you in the wind,
You've got me constantly
♥
I miss him!
SO MUCH
I cannot believe its completely over, gone...never to be held again. It really hurts. I wish I could go back and fix it all...I hate myself for losing him. He was love and that I lost!
♥ I think I'm in love with love♥ |
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Love will tear us apart [again] ♥ |
January 9th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
So Its Like Everytime I See You I End Up Wanting More
&& Everytime I Talk With You My Heart Falls To The Floor.
Everytime I Look At You My Gaze Always Seems To End,
But Everytime I Wish We Could Be,
We Always End Up Friends...
I've been in a pretty good mood today...not as good as the weekend...that was simply kodak...but now as it says...i feel longing. as if a huge part of me is missing that everyone tends to see. I guess I am longing for that person to love me as much as i've loved -him- && as much as i *adore* this kid.
But...I shall not get my hopes up...but i'll still *adore* him to the end of the world.
but here is the thing...
i am really confused as to WHO he is.
i have a really good idea....that i am willing to bet on, but I am not sure if it is HIM.
[oh] how i wish i knew.
but he's [[GREAT]]...so i have no complaint.
A little part of me has fallen for more than one guy...but HIM...MR FUZZY...it feels right.
but i am just a stupid little girl with her hopes to high && feelings much to strong.
so i dont know.
♥I think I am in love with love♥ |
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you make me [oh] so happy |
January 6th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
Lets drive into the sunset && sing love songs;
we'll make unkeepable promises && swear we'll never love anyone else
Today I had quite a good day.
Actually that is an understandment...
I had an absolutely great day!
♥
I had a lot of fun hanging out with people; even though they were all guys...
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It was like completely grand.
*heavenly*
lovely ♥
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PeRfEcT! |
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its time to take a chance ♥ |
January 4th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: curses--bullet for my valentine
Feeling: hesitant
&& This is just another modern day *love story* where 'She' falls much HARDER then Him*
It's a new year, decided to have a new diary.
why?
not completely sure...but i know i dont want it filled with that of the last two.
i really hope this year is nothing like the past.
last year was hectic and pretty much life shattering in which most was regretted with a few exceptions.
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