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April 18th, 2007 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: Ball and Biscuit-The White Stripes
This is a chapter of my life that I've closed. Or at least, I've wanted to.
I don't want to share this diary with people. There's too much in it. Too many feelings and secrets that new friends need not know about.
Two days after my previous entry said marvelous girl and I broke up. That was a horrible experience for me. I've got other things in mind now, though.
So, I don't plan to be updating much more until I can create a new diary.
Like I've done with two other diaries, this chapter needs to come to a close. :) |
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Wow, an update for you? |
March 12th, 2007 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: Lars Frederiksen and the Bastards
Well, it's amazing how much a person can change in a matter of three months.
My life has gone upside down and inside out, I swear. I'm currently dating this marvelous girl but I haven't ruled out those previous boys as friends. Even though they basically used me. I wouldn't want to lose their friendships, as awful as that sounds.
I've got a voice and I'm learning how to use it. How to stick up for myself, how to take care of myself. I'm looking out for me and it feels really good.
I've still got to figure out what I'm going to do with my home situation, though. I don't understand why we just cannot make things work here... =/
I've got no alternative, though. |
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January 12th, 2007 @ 12:00am |
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Whenever I become emotionally close to a guy he ends up abruptly leaving for reasons unbeknownst to me.
It's really starting to hurt. |
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January 2nd, 2007 @ 12:00am |
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It seems that everybody on this site says the same thing. Those who probably do have half-decent things to say make their diaries private. Why is that?
Everybody wants everybody else.
But in this world at the same time nobody cares about anybody else. |
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So I lied. |
December 22nd, 2006 @ 12:00am |
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No new diary. I can't find where to go create a new diary? If somebody would like to show me, it'd be much appreciated. I have things I'd like to bring up, but I'll finish this entry later. |
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December 22nd, 2006 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: Hey Pretty (Drive-by remix) -Poe
I counted his heartbeats. I'm such a jerk. I'm good at ruining those potential "moments". I do it on purpose. Surprise, surprise.
I'm at a new chapter in my life, maybe I should make a new sitidary account.
I think I'll do that.
Right now. |
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December 5th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
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La dee da.
When he hugs me I'm at the height to hear his heartbeat. Makes me feel like a nurse. Next time I'll try counting.
Doesn't seem normal, though. James and I. I think that's why we aren't together-together. Maybe we both know it wouldn't work out.
So we just kiss each other, or something? I don't know. I guess we're just transition sluts for each other or something. That's his nice way of saying friends with benefits maybe. |
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November 28th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
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My self esteem just dropped about 27 points. |
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November 26th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
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So he didn't ask me to be his girlfriend, but he asked me to get in his backseat.
I didn't do anything I'd regret, though. We kept our pants on. Thank goodness.
Now I'm just going insane =/ |
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Fuck it |
November 25th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: Greener Pastures-No Doubt
This song actually is fitting for this entry.
I don't know if James asked me to be his girlfriend, or just to be friends with benefits, but I told him to ask me again after he takes me out to ice cream, whenever that is.
I don't want to be friends with benefits with anyone.
I'm going to get into a fucking relationship, and I'm not going to think twice about it. I'm tired of this shit.
I won't think about you anymore! I won't get sad when I think of you with other people. I'll focus on my fucking self. I'll pay attention to my happiness.
I'LL CARE ABOUT SOMEBODY ELSE. |
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