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slut free. July 1, 2008

Listening to: be my escape - relient k
Feeling: amused

wow.
My cruise.
4 days. 3 nights.
it started off well.
hung out. ate a lot.
met some people.
went swimming.
got a killer tan.
and just had fun.
the last night
we wanted to have fun.
I had a beer and so did Mel.
we went back to our room
because we had no adults
and we just wanted to watch a movie.
we brought along two friends we met.
matt and steven.
we got in the room and I left to
go get some hot chocolate I come back in
and I'm tired so I watch the movie and
fall asleep alone and I'm a light sleeper.
I hear knockin on the door and its melanies
mom and her aunt so I open the door
and she goes crazy cuz melanies half naked
with a boy and whatever everyone else was
fully clothed just talkign and hanging
out and stuff no one knew what she was doing
mels mom called us all sluts and basically
blamed it all on me.
whatever. I didn't do anything and
she got all mad at me but I don't care
but me and mel can't hang out anymore
which I don't really want to hang out with
her anyways but I hang out with her brother
too which sucks because I probably can't hang with him either but he can make
his own decisions about that.
but the first night me and her brother
stayed up all night to watch the sun
rise and she started to accuse me of
doing "stuff" with him which is complete
bull because were friends and with a whole
bunch of other people!
ah she makes me so mad and she basically
ruined all of our whole trip because
all she did was yell at us and be a
total bitch about everything when
she's the one married and kissed some
other guy and she can't blame it on the
alcohol because she didn't even start drinking
until after dinner and AHHHH she's so
ah.
whatever but the cruise over all was
just beautiful and stuff ya know
we made a lot of new friends and plan
to keep in touch..
dinner was usually fun
we had these crazy guys next to us
and they were really funny
we even met a guy from that dance show
the guy from the jabowalkees or whatever
it was fun he taught me some sweet moves
lol.
we met a guy from holland with an accent
it was cool.
everyone that worked on the ship was
from a different country or even
continent it was really cool.
the chef even gave me his hat.




it was quite an expierince.
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talk shit get hit. June 11, 2008

Listening to: Ghost man on Third - taking back sunday
Feeling: alone

:/
so much drama.
it's summer.
why doesn't everyone just
SHUT UP!
Jesus Christ.

this girl sent a naked pic
or herself to this boy
of course everyone will see it.
come on now be smarter than that.
&& especially knowing how
flippin small tehachapi is
people are gonna find out
and see..
stupid.

I'm just going to have fun this summer.
It's actually already been amazing.
not one day has been boring.
I haven't really slept since school.
ha.
I love it.

the dance was wonderful.
six flags was even better.
and the last day of school..
freakin bombbbbb:D
hehe.
it's pretty happenin.

boys.
so gayy.
I don't even want to talk about them.
butt I have a funny story.
at was at a friends house and she was
laying down like out of it.
really our of it and these two
guys were laying next to her and one
guys hand was like on her stomache
and the other guys hand was sorta on
her breast and she kept moving around
to get their hands off her and
they both moved thir hands and their
hand met and they like started holding
hand both thinking that it was her.
GREAT.
it was the funniest thing I have ever seen.
:]

it was a kinda a
you should have been there
thing.
C:foshow.

hum didly dum.
I'll write more
whenever something happens
thats worth telling about.
unless there is too much stuff
then maybe later.
[:dododeeee.
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and they lived happily ever after. June 3, 2008

Listening to: Falling Away - Amber Pacific
Feeling: sad

I'm so over drama at this point.
Serisouly.
People just need to get over themselves
and not try and start stuff with
people that are just little mored
liked then them.

Ther are so many rumors about me
going on right now and
I really don't care if people belive them
or not.
I know either way they will be like
"Oh I know you didn't do that stuff
I believe you"
But them five seconds later someone will
ask
"Do you think she really did that"
The other person will be like
"She says she didn't but
I think she did"

Sound familiar?
Yea thats pretty much how it goes.

today we were practicing for
the promotion ceremony and
I yelled go Kaela and I got kicked out.
I know I'm still allowed to walk
butt I might not be able to go to the dance
so lame.
butt whatever.

Not much really happened today.
This girl Emerald cheated on her
boyfriend Cody over the weekend.
he was really sad.
I felt bad for him but he didn't break up
with her even though he tells me he's
pretty sure that she'll do it again.
Especially since summer is almost here.

I cracked the screen on my cellular device
it stinks.
its not the bad though butt
everytime I drop it it gets worse.
and I tend to drop it a lot.
:/
psh. I could live with out a cell.
So it doens't really matter.

Right now I'm really just over the
boys at my school.
I don't think that they could get
any more immature.
ugh.

I miss my elementary school friends.
I mean a lot of them are the same people
butt they are extremly different.
It's not fair.
I miss recess and
chasing boys and
when they had coodies.
It was better then
when the only desicion you had to
make was what color blue to use
sky blue or regular blue.
I miss not being judged and
not having rumors.
I love how you could just
meet someone and the next minute
you were best friends.
I like telling secrets and knowing
that they'll be kept a secret.
I loved not having the pressure to do
thing like there is now.
I miss when everyone "suger coated"
all the bad news instead of just
blurting it out now.
sighhh.
those were the good days.
now its all about sex drugs and alcohol.
://
man o man.

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Ooh child. things are gonna get easier. June 1, 2008

Listening to: the spinners - Ooh child
Feeling: amused

The song I'm listening to
reminds me of my Dad.
I always used to sing it
butt I never really knew why
or how I even knew it.
Then they played it at my Dads
funeral and it just clicked.
]:]

This weekedn was a really funn weekend.
Friday I went to Evan's house
with Aluara and Me him Aluara
and Tyler and Robert and Joey
just hung out and swam
me and Aluara stayed the night
and it was a little weird butt
really funn.
we didn't even sleep though so
it wasn't really staying the night.
saturday I went to Lancaster with
Kassidy and Kendyl and we went to the
mall and swam at her mom's boyfriends
house and tanned.
I'm a little dark now.
I have the funniest tan lines
like the bow from my
swim suit on my back!
:D
we stayed the night there and watched
Sydney White
SweeNy Todd
A Cinderella Story
The Number 23

They were all really good
my favorite out of them
were Sydney WhiteC:
hehe.

we turned on the cachuzzi that night
and left it on all night
and today we woke up and went to feel it
and it was hott and
so was the whole pool!!
oopsiee.
it was amazing though
we just swam all day today and layed out
then watched Finding Neverland
butt I fell asleep.

I just got home like half an hour ago
or something like that.
it was really funn.
tomorrow I have to get a dress
for the dance
thats on wednesday.
[:heh.

Hmm so lately things at school
are really weird.
a lot of drama and stuff
which isn't at all fun
butt things will work out.

I really want to meet new people.
I love getting to know someone
that's the only reason I can't wait
until I go to THS next year..!
that's about it..


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Ooh child. things are gonna get easier. June 1, 2008

Listening to: the spinners - Ooh child
Feeling: amused

The song I'm listening to
reminds me of my Dad.
I always used to sing it
butt I never really knew why
or how I even knew it.
Then they played it at my Dads
funeral and it just clicked.
]:]

This weekedn was a really funn weekend.
Friday I went to Evan's house
with Aluara and Me him Aluara
and Tyler and Robert and Joey
just hung out and swam
me and Aluara stayed the night
and it was a little weird butt
really funn.
we didn't even sleep though so
it wasn't really staying the night.
saturday I went to Lancaster with
Kassidy and Kendyl and we went to the
mall and swam at her mom's boyfriends
house and tanned.
I'm a little dark now.
I have the funniest tan lines
like the bow from my
swim suit on my back!
:D
we stayed the night there and watched
Sydney White
SweeNy Todd
A Cinderella Story
The Number 23

They were all really good
my favorite out of them
were Sydney WhiteC:
hehe.

we turned on the cachuzzi that night
and left it on all night
and today we woke up and went to feel it
and it was hott and
so was the whole pool!!
oopsiee.
it was amazing though
we just swam all day today and layed out
then watched Finding Neverland
butt I fell asleep.

I just got home like half an hour ago
or something like that.
it was really funn.
tomorrow I have to get a dress
for the dance
thats on wednesday.
[:heh.

Hmm so lately things at school
are really weird.
a lot of drama and stuff
which isn't at all fun
butt things will work out.

I really want to meet new people.
I love getting to know someone
that's the only reason I can't wait
until I go to THS next year..!
that's about it..


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what are you so scared of? May 27, 2008

Listening to: everybody else - makeup
Feeling: eek!

Whoah baby.
this weekend.
positivesly amazing.
I suppose.

Friday.
[:we went out to eat with
a bunch of friends.
we went to premo burger
and I didn't know what to order
so I aske lexie
hot wings or nachos?
and she was like HUGE
it was so funny.
she says she thoght that I said
how big are the nachos.
it was so great.
now its like an injoke.
I love it.
thennnn
we all went to see that new movie
What happens in Vegas.
butt one of our friends got the time
wrong and we missed the last show.
we were a tad unhappy.
butt we ended up seeing Iron Man
which was a pretty good movie.
well only me and Lexie really watched
everyone else was too busy making out.
which brings me to the high light of
my weekend.
sort of.
There's this girl named Jenna
I hate her.
the only person I hate.
She's going out with this boy Blake.
he's like a brother to me.
she wasn't invited butt he went to
the movies.
he made out with my friend megan
while he was still with Jenna.
yea he was going to break up with her
butt he didn't before he did that.
He told Megan he broke up with her
and she doesn't like Jenna so i know
she really didn't care if he was
telling the truth or not.
Regardless of how much I hate Jenna
I told both of them that
It wasn't a good idea.
Did they liste?
NO.
She found out.
the same night.
yikesss
dramaaa.!
my bestie Bailey she hates Jenna
more than anyone or anything
she yelled at her for the longest time
and bitched out her mom too.
ha.
Jenna hates megan.
Jenna and Blake are going back out.
wtf right?
STUPID.
me cayle and lexie and bailey
were at my house that night.
it was pretty funn after that had ended
there's more to it butt
to boring I guess.
well for me because I've had to explain it
wayy too many times.
:/

Saturday.
pretty boring.
had practice it was a blast.
then had to help with this
biker thing at my church
boring.
the food was good.
and the bands.
after that we went to Cayle and Lexie's
house.they're sisters.
it was boring for a while then we
went to a friend of mines party
it was okay.
everyone was drunk and high.
hilarious.
if you're into that.
my mom picked us up at like
midnight and
we went back to cayle and lexies
and talked about everything
then ate a lot of food and then
went to sleep.

Sundayy.
I don't even remember.
Oh yeaaa
we rode the bus to bakersfield and
went to the bowling alley
butt we didn't bowl.
my mom or cayle and lexies mom
doesn't know that we went still.
shh[:
we stayed the night at their sister
audras house.
then we went to the movies and saw
What happens in Vegas.
Finally.
:D
it was super good.
sorta.
we got back to audras at
midnight and were so tired.
butt stayed up and talked.
[:
then went to bed.
butt really talked some more.
this boy clint likes me Iguess
I don't know.
and he always texts me and thats
just what we talk about.


Monday..
craziness.
we were supposed to go home
back on the bus today.
no buses were running so
baileys gramma took us home.
butt before that omg
like ohhkayy bailey she has
a huge mouth and an even bigger
additude.
this little boy next door
stole audras son's skateboard
they are like 10 years old
so my other friend Chey went over
there and just asked if they took it
and the little boy
[william]
told his sister that she cussed at thim and all this stupid stuff
and she came over to
audras and audra wasn't there
it was just me bailey lexie cayle
and chey and audras kids
right and the sister comes over and
starts yelling at chey and blah blah
and bailey gets into and and just
cusses them out and all this stuff
and so they are yelling and its scary
this chick is huge well not really
but her titts were bigger than my head
just one of them anyways..
so bailey is runnin her mouth and shes like
in the door wayy and the chick is on the lawn and bailey is like do somehting
blah blah blah ya know?
and the chick is like come out side
blah blah blah right.
and bailey is like beep beep beepen beep
and the chick goes inside sorta and
grabs bailey by the hair and pulls her
outside and they start fighting and they
are wrestling on the lawn and I go to pull them apart and the crazy chicks sister
grabs me and is like don't touch them
and I had to push the tweaker off me to get to bailey and they just fought and it was completely insane.
the chick won butt bailey got in some good hits broke all her nails
ha.
but they fake nails tore off her real nails.
ouch.
so then the chicks mom comes over and was ll like if I was your age I'd beat the living crap out of you blah blah except she used much more coloful language and so she kept saying stuff and was like i'll beat the adults asses that live here blah blah
so we called up and audra and her and jennifer came over and ha.
yea that one we won.
audra is so bad ass.
I love it.
we rode home and we just laughed about it.
it was great.



okay so I'm reading this book
I know I'm always reading a book.
I like to read.
it's called
absolutely normal chaos.
I've been raeding these books lately
about teen love and romance
and I'm like wtf it never really happens
and I just wish it would happen to me
ya know?
and sometime soon.
I'm dieing over here.
blehhhh.
I just want to meet new people
I'm tired of the same old boys
here and how they're just so
immature.
I mean yea we're yound
really young.
butt do you honestly have to
make stupid jokes about white stuff
and hard wood all the time?
I mean like once in a while its funny
butt when you say it like three times a day
it gets a little old.
:/
its like 12 now and I'm not really tired
even though I got practically no sleep
this whole weekend.
my head hurts a lot.
blac fool
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hate is a strong word. May 20, 2008

Listening to: of all the gin joints in the world - fall out boy
Feeling: whatever

I think it's extrememly funnie
when guys get mad when you say
whatever.
[:
today may have been worse than
yesterday.
we took a really long
math test today.
!!so lame.
I'm supposed to go to
this kidd Jerrys hockey game
that starts in like 15 minutes
butt I'm not going.
he'll be angry.
whatever.

I got new pajamas today.
they're prettie cutee.
:D
that's about as exciting as
today get's.
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May 19, 2008

Listening to: Come Back To Me - Plain White T's
Feeling: angsty

Longest Monday ever.
also the boringest.
If that's even a word.
:/
nothing happened that was
worth while.
nothing.

we had a really cute sub
in math.
that was just about
the highlight of my day.

just ate a bagel.
yumm.
going to make macaroni
salad.
:D.

we play this game in
english where you can't say
no know or mine
and if you do then
you have to do 1o push ups
right there.
I lost once.
ha.

history wasn't too bad.
just sat around and talked.
drew pictures.

p.e.
I didn't dress out.
it was funn I guess.
not really.

science.
thats where I get my rest.

a.s.b.
wrote a poem
a bio poem.
maybe I'll post it.
it's one of those you do
when you're in like second grade
that start with your first name
and end with your last.
you know the ones.
I'm not sure why my teacher
had us do one.
:/

not in any order.

more drama on the buss.
I'm so tired of it.
it didn't involve me but
everyone was just
talking crap.
and I don't know
just buggs me though.
they use such colorful
language too.
/:

heh.

my shoulders hurt.
blehh.




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He loves me not. May 18, 2008

Listening to: One - Eighty By Summer
Feeling: distracted

Today..
extremely Exciting.
[:
we had a car wash.
we as in me and whole bunch
of my friends.
raising money for this club basketball thing.
it cost a lot to enter a
tournament and the parents are like
blah blah blah we don't want to pay a lot
so you guys should raise the money.
so we did.
I'm not exactly sure on the exact dollar
amount butt it was over
400 buckssss.
we had water fights and soapy fights.
met cute boys with dirty trucks
drank lemonaide and
ate browniess.
not to mention we all have a rather
nice tan.

I'm still waiting for summer.
It seems like just yesterday that
I was so excited for a new school year.
&&now I can't wait until it's finally
over.

Humm.
Friday night.
Went to this show with some
local bands..
it was prettie exciting.
I had the most funn at the end
when I actually got into
the huge mosh pit//dogg pile.

Saturday.
Practice.
I finally landed a round off
back hand spring.
saturday night I went to a
kick back.
so lame.
sorta.

Today.
was the car wash.

Prettie good weekend.
If I do say so myself.

I'm reading this book.
The BoyFriend List.
interesting.
really weird though.
...
it makes me really want
a best friend.
just how it talks about how
they talk about everything
and all this stuff.
all my friends
[if you can call them that]
can't be trusted
with anything.
whats a friend you can't trust
right?
well I have a friend that I can trust
butt we're not that close anymore.
:/

I really don't like Mondays.
Then again..
who does?
I was thinking about it though
if I stayed home tomorrow
just because I don't like Mondays
then Tuesday would end up just taking
the place of my so hated MOnday
right?
I mean I don't hate Monday because
its Monday butt because
its the beginning of the week
and I'm tired from the weekend and
I don't want to do the work.
I'll go.
maybe something eventful
will happen that will make it
worth while.
maybe.

my legs hurt.
a little burnt.
funny tan lines.
I love it.
&& hate it at the same time.
-shrug-
especially from the band I have
around my ankle.
C:

desperate house wives is onn.
ha.
don't watch it butt
everyone in my house seems
to enjoy it.

writers block.
I know there was something
important that I was just
dieing to share butt
I don't remember what it was.
I bett I'll remember it
sometime tomorrow during class
or something.
&&it will be so obvious like
what the heck how could I not
remember this?!?!

the other day someone told me a joke.
I laughed butt I really didn't get it.
when I finally got it
I started busting up in my
english class
and then just thinking how stupid
I am for not getting it the first time
just made me laugh more.
my teacher didn't appreciate my sudden
outbust so
to office I went.
[:

I was actaully overly excited to
get out of that class.

why am i all of a sudden so
exhauseted?
I slept when I got home after the
car wash.
then my sister woke me up
yelling on the phone with her
ex who just can't seem to get over her
even though he broke it off.
It seems to me like
they just might date again
I hate it because he's such an
asshole to her butt she can
dish it backk so I guess its alright
He's an idiot though.

I'm in love with whoever
invented cookies.
I think I will have some then
head to bedd.
I know who goes to bed at
like nine right?
well I do.
I have all sumer to stay upp.

^_^



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confused. May 14, 2008

Listening to: Bite to Break the skin - senses fail
Feeling: bewildered

Soo tell me how to change
all my info stuff.
its not really true anylonger.
and my age stuff and all that.
how do I change itttt!???!?
help[:
please and thank you.
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